Questions

        Stressed during Christmas break?  That's exactly what I am.  I am stressed and it's Christmas break.  "Why are you stressed, Janelle?" you might ask.  That's a great question.
        Life is stressing me out.  It's so big and important and half the time, I feel like I'm not ready for it.  I need to start looking for a summer job.  I have three options.  I can work somewhere to make money, I can volunteer, or I can work at a camp.  Which do I choose?  Money would be nice, considering that I go to a private university that is by no means cheap.  Would it be fulfilling?  Probably not, but I guess there could be jobs out there that I really feel like I am doing God's will.  But what would that be?  I don't know.
        Volunteering.  Oh boy. I feel like this is the hardest one, and not because of the lack of money.  I just want to leave.  I want out of Harrisonburg for a while.  So if I were to leave, I would have to find an organization or place to volunteer with that I feel I can support.  I would also either have to rent, which I definitely don't have money for, or live with friends and relatives, and I'm not the kind of person that feels comfortable asking for lodging, especially for an extended period like a summer.  I would feel like such a mooch.  So that leaves camp.
        I've always had a heart for summer camps.  I went to Highland Retreat growing up and have made some great friends and had great experiences through that.  I found out a lot about my relationship with Christ and how I best grow with Him through camp.  I even got baptized at Highland.  But I feel myself getting restless in and around Harrisonburg.  I didn't get away for college, so I really want to get away this summer, and camp would be an easy way to do that.  There are Christian camps all over the US.  So... Where to go?  I have two friends who worked at River Valley Ranch in Maryland, but could I actually do a whole summer around horses? (For those of you who don't know, Janelle + horses = hives.)  Also, by looking at pictures, hearing stories and going to their website, RVR looks like a place where I would either absolutely love it, or just get really overwhelmed.  Am I willing to take that risk?  So, I looked up Mennonite Camps since I am Mennonite and went to Highland my whole life.  I feel like I know what to expect at least a little.  But they all sound the same.  Where is a good fit for me?  Where can I not just be a catalyst in helping others grow in Christ, but grow in Christ myself?
        Oh.  I guess I also have the option for missions, but that requires money that I do not have.  Plus, I can go to Atmore, AL for free :)
        So... If you have the answers to any of these questions, by all means, please let me know.