New Deep

I'm having an off day and I don't know why. Amazingly, it probably has nothing to do with the fact that Josh Groban's new cd came out today and I couldn't even buy it thanks to stores who only stock their shelves on Tuesdays. I don't know what my problem is. I feel like I want to be around people all the time, and then when I am, I just want to get away. Ladies and Gentlemen, it is high time for Thanksgiving break.
It's amazing how breaks come JUST when I need them. Just when everything is getting on my last nerve, just when I feel so stressed that I want to do nothing other than sleep, a break appears. But why can't I just be happy all the time? It bothers me that I can't pinpoint every single one of my issues. For instance, EMU has an international hymn sing tonight... There are VERY few things that I love more than music, but I don't think that I'm going to go. I just don't want to and I don't know why. I know I'll probably kick myself tomorrow for not going, but if I could go back to today, I'd probably repeat tonight all over again. Why am I not going? ... I don't know. Why am I in a horrid mood today? ... I don't know.
Prayer and music are probably the two most influential aspects of my life. But recently, I haven't been able to get enough of either of them to the point of frustration. I'll be listening to John Mayer (New Deep at the moment) on my laptop and then sit there thinking how I should turn on the radio because I needed music in the room... I couldn't comprehend that I already was listening to something. It just wasn't enough.
I think I just need time to relax. I always want answers right when I ask the question. I know God doesn't work like that most of the time. I know people say that God gives you what you need in ways you don't expect. Ex: you ask for patience, and he gives you situations to be patient in... I feel like my life is full of these situations and I am not 'patient'. I get frustrated that He can't just give me 'patience'. I don't need more situations to test my 'patience'. But, I guess I do. God knows what's best, and no matter how hard it is for me, His plan is best and I just need to stick with it -- even if I don't know what it is.