Needs

I have so much to do and so little time to do it.

I need to do my homework.
I need to learn repertoire.
I need to hang out with friends.
I need time for sleep.
I need to find a boyfriend.

Woah, woah, woah.  That was a false statement.  I realized tonight how out of wack my priorities have been in my life.  Yes.  I want nothing more in life than to be a great mom married to a fantastic man who form a family fulfilling God's will.  After Bible study tonight though, I realized not only have I not met anyone that I honestly think is what I need in a relationship, but I'm not at the point in my life either.  I am not in a point in my relationship with Christ where I am ready for a distraction.  Yes.  That is what a boyfriend would be.  He'd be a huge distraction in my walk with Christ in all honesty.

I want Christ to be the center of all I do.  It's a goal that will never be met.  If you reach it somehow, please, by all means, let me know how you did it.  I know that I need to share this goal with my future husband.  I need someone who can walk with Christ with me.  Someone who can push me when I feel tired.  Someone who interprets the Bible the way I do. Someone who believes that every. word. is. Truth.

Someone who is always excited about Christ and what He is doing in their lives and the lives of those around them.  Someone who will be the kind of husband the Bible clearly lays out.  Someone who is on fire for Christ.  Someone who will blow me away with his love and deep relationship with God.

What I really need to do is completely and wholly devote my life to Christ.  As I just turned 20 this week, I have decided that this Saturday, I am going to spend 20% of my day (since I've lived roughly 20% of my life and I am 20. It works out...) with Christ in prayer, scripture, and thought.  I'm sure there will be a blog to follow.

In Christ's love,
Janelle.